Late Night Ramblings from your Friendly local photographer
Sooo! I don’t know that anyone will actually read this. It is just one of those late night rambles. A bit of a personal share really. I am up late working. It is a weekend and around here those are sacred. I am a very family first type person so I am not productively at my best during the day and with the little ones back in school I have to keep to a rigid schedule so I can wake up early to get them off okay. Anyhow I am also a netflix junkie. I was browsing their watch instantly tonight and there were some REALLY old movies. Okay maybe not THAT old. But old enough to provoke me to remember. Remember what you may be asking yourself right about now? Well remember my childhood. Maybe childhood isn’t totally appropriate. My sister’s childhood. You see I am the oldest child of five. I have three brothers and one sister. One brother and sister is from my mom and my stepfather (sounds weird saying that as he is in all ways but the biological kind my “real” dad.) and the other two are from my donor (and I am being REALLY nice here lol!) and my ex stepmother. Anyhow I didn’t really discover my two brothers until adulthood but my brother and sister from my mom I am very close with. My sister in particular is nine and a half years younger then me. That basically means she is mine. She has always been mine. She is now about to turn eighteen in November. And for those of you counting in your head yes I am 26 and a half and yes I have 4 kids LOL! Insanity is hereditary so I am dreading the teenage years a round here. Kidding kidding..kind of. Back on point. Netflix..teenage sister. Grease. The movie Grease. My sister used to watch and rewatch and watch this again. And I grinned and beared it. Because I loved her. Because I love her. And now I am emotional because I am realizing my baby sister really isn’t a baby anymore. She has been a bit distant these past couple of years. I understand at some point you just aren’t the cool older sister. I am married. I have a big family. I have my own business(es) I just don’t have the time. But my sister is just part of me and I am SO looking forward to the day she comes home. The day her and I have that amazing sisterly bond you see in movies. I do believe that will be us. I miss her. I know that she will come over for coffee or wine. Or who knows coffee and wine. And I am sure we will watch Grease. Maybe on netflix and maybe even twice just for old times sake. And if you read this T. And I doubt you will. Know I love you. PLEASE know I love you. I know being a teenager isn’t easy. My heart truly aches for you. But I am publicly professing my love for you little woman. I love you. I am here. I see your pain. You will always be my little girl. From the moment you were born you were mine. So come over.. have coffee and we will watch Grease. And I will sing to you as I did when you were just the size my youngest daughter is. Or you can hold her the way I held you and sing to her for me because she is going to idol worship you the way you did me. And because I am a photographer I guess I will share some photos because she is gorgeous and I am proud..
Thanks for letting me rattle on! T I do hope you see this!
XOXO
Sarah
Awwww you have me tearing up too! Im SO not looking forward to when Grace is a teenager! Even though she is 6 right now, she is still my baby =)
I loved reading this post because it reminds me so very much of me and my little sister. I’m 25 and she’s 15, so we also have a large age difference between the two of us. She’s still a sophomore in hs, so I continue to be the “cool” older sister, but I also remember the days of watching Grease over and over. We would sing and dance in my parent’s basement throughout the summers when I would babysit her. So, your post really struck a note in me too! I’m sure your sis will forever look to you as her idol (even if you don’t see it right now)!
Tearing up over here. So sweet – she is very lucky to have you. 🙂
Hey Baby, she will know it some day. She is very lucky you are her sister and I turely hope she knows that. Love you Auntie Marge
I just love your post…so personal and beautiful. Wonderful pictures to go along with your story!!
You remind me so much of my older sister! She’s 7 years older than me. I feel like she’s my second Mom. Truthfully, she probably had just as much of a hand in raising me as my own Mom did{not because my Mom didn’t care or anything, but she had to work to support a family as big as mine}Coming from ‘the babies’ point of view, I think she knows you love her. I’m about your sisters age {17} and even though my sister drives me CRAZY with how bossy and controlling she is, I also know she loves me. All that to say, I know your sister will realize it one day, it’s taken me 17 years to, but now that I do I realize, all these fights we have over crazy little things, they’ll blow over, they always do. Hope the same things happen with your sister!
*excuse my rambling, just thought I’d share 🙂
i was NOT prepared to cry this morning! what a sweet song for your sister. and beautiful captures of her with your own. and of course, them images are gorgeous….so light and breezy. *sniffle*
This totally got me all choked up! I am an only child but I am so envious of this kind of sister relationship. Whatever’s going on in her life, the best thing is for her to know you’re there and it’s unconditional.
On another note, I really love that you shared such a sweet personal story. I really admire photogs who incorporate little bits of their own lives into their business. I love getting to know who you are, and that you’re comfortable sharing photos of all your children with us 🙂
Such a beautiful love you have for her! She’s gorgeous just like you and she’ll find her way! I know one day you’ll share wine and coffee together!
I love your love for your sister! She is so blessed to have you Sarah. 🙂