Letters To My Daughters | Personal Alert

I absolutely can not believe that Christmas has really come and gone already.  We have been so busy trying to prepare for the New Year and with all the littles home from school right now on vacation is has been so amazingly hectic (and fun!!) but we have been trying to find ways to keep them entertained! Every month I write letters to one or both of my daughters. This is as much for me as them I admit. I really love that they will have a keepsake. Something to really have when they are old enough to understand just how important these letters really are.  Most of all I have a tangible record of my love for them!! There are some seriously AMAZING women in this circle with me so after you read my letter please go on to the next (and the next, and the next!) I am always blown away by them!!

This Month I am writing to my Sophia. Sophia is the youngest of our four children and our little firecracker.

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Dearest Sophia,

The new year is days away. We are heading into 2013 straight on and I can’t help but think that means in Four short months you will no longer be Three years old. You will be Four.  I know it seems pretty premature to be thinking of your birthday since it really is months away. But as Christmas this year came on so fast and then now New Years I know it is only a matter of time and before we know it you will be another year older. The next upcoming year will mark a ton of milestones for you. You will be going off to preschool.  You are officially leaving toddlerhood and moving on to the very next stage. I just don’t know if I am ready for that. I am going to put my bravest mommy face on and try to lead you right on into the world.  I will admit though selfishly I just love having you home.  I love the few baby like tendencies that we are holding onto here. We are still co-sleeping (though I admit we gave your “big” girl bed a shot and I was secretly happy when it didn’t work) and I love how no matter how wild you are during the day when you are sleeping you look like an absolute cherub and I still see that sweet baby face I looked down on what seems like such a short time a go for the first time. It is just my nature with all four of you littles to really be protective and want to shield you all from the world that is seemingly so cruel and I get so overwhelmed with Lillian and Wesley and Noah being in school already. All I want to do is shield you from all the horrible things in the world. To keep you safe and protected. To wrap you up in my love and keep you surrounded with it. That isn’t the only thing in my heart though.

Daddy and I always knew we wanted a big family.  We absolutely love being a mommy and a daddy.  How could we not? We have been blessed with four of the most amazing little people God could bless anyone with.  Lately with us all growing and changing and time slipping by we have been discussing the possibility of another baby. We thought for the longest time that you would be our last one. I was so sure for so long.  You just feel like the baby Sophie.  Now there is a good possibility that there will be another baby in our future whether it be next year or the year after. But every time we do add another tiny human to our family among elation and joy and love there is a bit of guilt. I know we are stretched a bit thinner in every sense. We have less energy, less time.  Know this though Sophie.  And I should say this is for all four of you but love doesn’t ever stop growing and multiplying. If/when we ever do have another baby know that love just grows and grows.  It gets a bit stronger every single day.  You will always be my baby. All of you will. I am always in amazement of you all.  So strong and resilient and beautiful. A little bit of mommy and daddy and yourselves in one beautiful package. You make me a better person.

I love you so much peanut.

Love,

Mama